Definition of family is what you make it

Have you have though yourself where do I belong? I know I have a lot. And to tell you the truth I'm still not so sure of where I do belong. Everyone has their own interpretation of where home is, and what family is. To me family is the peop that care and live for you no matter what goes on in your life and they will always stick by your side. So yeah to me family is blood because if it was well then I don't know my family and I don't have one, but family isn't about the DNA at all really, I mean scientificly yes it is all about DNA but FYI I'm not a scientist so family isn't all about blood to me. I consider a lot of my best friends my family also because they are there for me when I fall and they help me get up. I was born six week premature and born at home, and then my biological parents took me to the hospital and left me there for the doctor and nurses to take care of and after like a few weeks there the hospital gave me to an orphanage and I was there for 9 months until Ann and Terry Council came and adopted me all the way from Austin Texas! At the time I was half way across the world from them all the way in Chita Siberia. They gave up their time to invest in a little girl hopeless and alone, they came and got me. And to me THAT is family right there. Did they have to leave all that they knew for 9 day to travel half way across the country? No, but they did because family, because DNA doesn't matter in the long run, what matters is who will stay by you when your troubled, when your gone my through some tough situation. My friends Paige and Kenna have been there for me these past few weeks when I was going through a tough situation and I can't thank them enough, to me THEY are family. So in the end the definition of family is kinda what you make of it, whether you completely disagree with me and think family is DNA, or if you agree with me, or even if you have your own definition of family, I'm not gonna tell you what family is cause that's not my job but just remember the ones that stay are meant to stay for a reason and the ones that leave? Well they are also meant to leave for a reason.

Letting go of the why

As life has gone on these past few weeks I have found myself asking the same question everyday and that question is why? And everyone I know asks themselves that same question also. So I think I finally came to some conclusion of why...we all hope for this so call thing perfection yet in reality the only person that is perfect is God. Everyday we wake up and we are thinking to our selves today will be a great day, then by the time we get home we are all like I'm so done with everything right now. Why is that? Oh Looky there is that question why again. Why did this happen to me? Why did this person do that? Why didn't I do that? Why did I do this? There are a thousand why questions out there and obviously the only one that can answer the why questions in your life is yourself so go ahead sit down for a second and think and you probably won't come up with some of the answers on the top of your head and that's ok, I know I didn't. These past few months I have been dealing with a personal issue and I kept thinking why didn't I stop it?  Why did I let it continue? Why didn't I tell someone the first time it happened? There were all these why questions going through my head and some are even still there but recently after finally talking to a few different people about the situation I realized that I don't have to have all the answer right now or maybe not even in a few years from now do I have to know all the answers. The thing that happened has been keeping me stressed and worried and so many other things, but I finally put a stop to it all and all those why questions started to fade, yeah they still come back but they are mainly gone. Your probably asking well what does this have to do with me or my situation I'm going through and I'm about to tell you. Everyone has their struggles as they go through out life and everyone's struggles are different, but I say talk about it. It really does help to talk to someone you trust about something. I know it's was difficult for me to tell somebody for a while but once I did I felt way better. So these why questions....why can't we get rid of them? Well I can say that maybe we never will but you can at least start by trying too. They will keep popping up and keep showing up in your head trying to distract you from what really matters. So here is my challenge for you. Let go of something that was a why question for you. Whether it be why didn't I study for that test I knew I had. Or whether it be something more personal like mine. I know I'm letting it go now and my why questions for that may never be answered and that's ok too! Because I don't want this one thing that happened and all the why questions that come with it stuck in my head the rest of my life and I don't think you do either, so let go of some of those why questions trust me you will feel way better.


"Some of us think holding on makes us strong but sometimes it is letting go" -Hermann Hesse